Its been five years since I died

i don’t know how i did it but looking back i should have known that i would still miss everything about you. i don’t want to tell you this but i tried to kill the pain. I tried drowning it for three years i did what i could to dull the hurt. I turned to a bottle of alcohol but no matter how much I drank I couldn’t get you out of my head. I lied to y over and over again i felt like Alice going down the rabbit 4444444 deeper and deeper until i couldn’t…